You can keep with my life at ruby-red-fox.tumblr.com. It gets too hard to write now

Shitty day that doesn’t deserve being written about

Why does it seem like its easier for everyone else to make and follow through with extreme. Huge life changing decisions? Meanwhile I try to delay and resist making them for way too long and just end up harming myself. This has been such a bad day and I don’t want to think. I’m scared and depressed

I hope we aren’t here 5hrs again. Need to finish and submit resume for Job. And sleep. I’m ridiculously looking forward to it

Life after food

mme gg

It’s all in the angles. You too can look 5’10″”

Ugh, I wish I was stronger. I’m tired, and I just want… I don’t even know exactly what I want. Just to feel like I did those times on a regular basis. To not be annoyed at you. Like..always. Uck.

So dead tired. What is happening with you? I prob went overboard with going out today since it was first say I could since being sick. I got the only mh doll I could prioritize and wore another pair of jeans. Go me. Tomorrow/tonight I reply back

I didn’t go out today cause I lost my voice again. Had to cancel my appointment, ate saltines, and walked six miles to distract myself. I just can’t exist productively, can I? Why can’t I just be like average people ? Sometimes I have dreams then wake up and wonder if they are real life.. I also dont think you talked to me cause I haven’t assembled the damn cabinet. You in this sense means parents.

I’ll forever keep losing my voice at the worst times possible . Obviously, duh